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It’s tough to put internal events into words and it often over-simplifies them. The truth is, you’ll never know what it’s like to experience the world as Jason Socci and I’ll never know what it’s like to experience the world as anyone but Jason Socci. It’s ultimate existential loneliness. This doesn’t mean it’s pointless to try to come as close as possible. Try with me now, won’t you?
Allow me to share my experience of sinking. I’ve noticed this experience most often during the dim mak heart qigong. It goes something like this: My hands hover at about chest level, elbows dropping downward. Just below my hands, running parallel to the ground is a membrane. It’s like a very viscous liquid. My mind slowly drops down into it. Other times it’s more like I find a small crevice or whole in the membrane to drop into.
It’s gradual. I can’t try to do it; I must let it happen. Once I am engulfed, my awareness relaxes. In other words, instead of being aware and struggling with the burning muscles in my thighs or shoulders, I am aware and simply observe my physical body from a distance. It’s akin to experiencing the outside world while under water. The sensations are there, but they’re softened. Typically, I waver in and out. Bobbing up occasionally due to distractions or thoughts.
Wow, that sounds strange to read! Keep in mind; I don’t think any of these words while practicing. It all just happens abstractly through internal impressions and feelings. I came up with these words in order to help others (who are not me) get a taste of my experience.
Don’t be shy, please share some of your experiences here.
